Oh, everyone must think I'm such a horrid person! When I woke, I felt highly elated and pranced over to the OSW guildhall, expecting to see my love - to finally see him again - and to see sis and Elly and everyone that I treasure and love. But I stopped dead in my tracks when I realised that the guildhall was completely and utterly empty. It very nearly broke my heart. I stopped and sat where I was, in the empty 'ballroom'. Imagining that this was exactly how Sephy had felt when I hadn't been there. I nearly cried again, but I remembered my promise to the old woman, and didn't.

And then, to make things worse, when I woke up, I had a note from Elly asking if I was alright, and that I had worried everyone...and knowing that I haven't even seen Sephy in person for so long...oh, what have I done? Why did I get the time wrong? It was so foolish of me...he'll never forgive me now. I feel so terrible.

And to think it was only a few days ago, that I went into the lighthouse to get a gull plume for Fero, and get myself my Admiral's Cloak. All my elation from then, is gone.

Oh, what have I done?...

So the dress is coming along alright. I jotted down the design and handed it over to Garehk, and I watched him turn the raw silk into silkspun. Then he showed me how to basically form the dress. At times I winced because it got too fancy, or he made the bodice too small. But it's sort of nice. Very clumsy, ugly compared to others, but still nice. It has nice, flowing sleeves and a not-too-long skirt that reaches my ankles. It hasn't been dyed yet so it's still a rather dull silver. He's going to show me how to decorate soon. He hasn't quite finished the sleeves yet, and the skirt needs some touching-up. But the ball's soon so he's working at high-speed, and I watch as much as I can and try my hand at some things.

I'm tired now, though. Too much straining of the eyes...